Uste, get married soon okay!

OMG! My Uste is planning to get married! I just figured out a few hours ago before he departed to France. Well, I kind of ‘feel’ it prior being told by my mum but I never thought he really meant it. I egat it was a joke sbb masa tue we were wrestling (it’s our routine);

“Uste, go and get a life. Don’t you have anything to do? Mcm mane nak kawen gni!” I said as he pinned me down.
“Macam mane nak kawen, ko tak kawen lagi?” said Uste sambil memicit-micit lemak ku.
“Geli la sengal!”… and it ended there ( not the fight, the conversation).

I smiled as my mum told me about his wish. My mum said that most of his friends are back in Malaysia to get engaged with their love one and he actually was planning to do the same. Yippi! I am excited. My lil bro yg penah maen masak2 ngan I dah besar! Oh, I am proud of him. But then... suddenly my mum said this one heart-breaking thing.

Thinking about me, he cancelled his plan.

“Takkan la Uste nak langkah bendul”

WTH? I was devastated. If only I knew about this, I would smack him down earlier. The last thing I want to be is a sister who menghalang kebahagiaan my own lil brother. Cewah..

It’s so nice of him thinking about me, but Uste.. I don’t mind dear. I just want him to know I am okay with the langkah bendul or ape semua tue. I tak kisah. I want to see him happy. If nak tunggu eika kawen, eika rase mmg jauh lagi. So, BMW pon dah cukup… kidding!

Hurm.., it’s not that I am memilih or do not want to get married. I want! But God has a better plan for me. And I just think I am not ready for this, considering there are lots of things about me I need to change.. The right guy pon tak jumpa lagi. Fidelity is a big issue for me. Oh, I am pathetic! Anyway, sambung master pon tak lagi. Angan2 I neh besar taw… lagipon, God knows best. I believe in Him. If he thinks it’s time, it will be the right time.

I hope everything is going to be fine. And I hope my lil brother will be a nice husband. I am sure whoever is going to be his wife will be the luckiest girl on earth! Err…except that she needs to tolerate our wrestling routine. (^_*)

siGn

it's quiet hard to decide what's best for you when you cant even predict. not a single sign and stuff to help you deal with it. and the only thing that you can do is wait. and hope that Allah swt has mercy on you. so He will start pouring blessing and signs and you would be okay. how would you know what's best for you? life is about taking risk but how can you possibly calculate when you have no formulas? nope, you cant. the only logic reason for the crap i am taking about now is that i am totally confused.

human behavior is confusing. Look at me for instance. At times i cant even understand me. human rate of change fluctuate like the stock market. i wish there can be a machine that can give me graph on this. i like graph~~~

so tell me, when you love somebody, should it be a smooth ride or a bumpy ride?
is the bumpy ride means you should change your driver or it is going to be an exiting journey to a happily ever after ending?

you cant tell right? so do i..

i just hope i'm doing the right thing. Coz i wont let this brings me down. nope.. you cant. i just need some siGns, and lEt Allah swt does the rest..Lalala~~~~

Gosh... this is tough!

Not there yet

I don’t understand..

Why once people get married, or found their so-called ‘soulmate’, they no longer keep in touch with their friends? Old friends-to be specific. I have lost many best friends to marriage. Marriage seems to swallow them in one big basket, and confined them there. They no longer text you or call you. Not like what we used to do back then.

There might be various reasons for this. Their hectic life or ‘busy’ would be the most popular reason ever. This include:

# job to handle
# obligation towards husband
# kids to take care
# meal to cook
# etc..

but to me, it seems like they don’t need us, friend anymore. They only have that one world to take care of.Hence, others unattached would be just mere dust.

It is quite hard for me to comprehend. Maybe it’s true that their life is so damn busy with lots of things to settle. Maybe they have new friends to take care of. Maybe I’m not a good friend of worth keeping. Maybe life is like that. Maybe they already get what they want in life and friends mean nothing anymore.

Or could it be because.....

...... I just simply not there yet?...Hurmm....

Chematrian In Action Again!

It was a superb day for me. How excited I was as I drove like crazy from Kuantan to KL on that Saturday after a school event just to celebrate my mummy, abah, abe and uste's belated bday. It was a surprise so mummy dah frustrated dah when i said i tak balik. My uste came back a week earlier without telling me so as I knew about his presence here in Malaysia, eika mmg eager nak balik. Yeayyy!!!

I was actually in my baju kurung you know! Tak sempat nak salin pon. Punya la nak jayakan surprise nie. I went to Seremban to fetch my razif. A bit gado here gado there(^_*), cari kek and stuff .. we finally made it to Kunang Kunang.

With two cute cakes, candles and so on, I walked in and saw lots of beautiful faces waiting. Me and my sis sang the Happy Birthday song. i could tell that they were quite suprised. How I love them all! We celebrated that night with joy and laughter. Sume datang dengan partner. My bro n kak long with lil cute atif yang sakit perut, angah and bro fai with lil haikal comel, me n raz, uste and syerin, mummy and abah, and also my two cute lil sisters. I thanked Allah for his blessing, in giving me such a supportive family. I prayed to Allah that we will always be there for each other.

After the dinner, me, raz, angah, abg fai,haikal and those two lil devils went for bowling. Our favourite game! That wrapped up the day.



CheMatrian go bowl!

Team Pusing Bola (kapten=raz)

My fav guy beraksi~

Thanks raz for this lousy pic!you saja nak wat i hodoh!

Uste, that is so gay!

Chematrian!

BEkas Kelab Bowling Pandan. Konon la~~~

My other fav guy

Lastly, we went back home feeling great and tired. Phew! What a wonderful day~ (^_^)

Ramadhan joy!

Ramadhan is here. Yippi!!! I must admit that I feel anxious. Will I do better this year? Hopefully! (^_^)

So, eika nak mohon ampun maaf dari orang yang eika mungkin pernah sakiti, buat dosa, lukai…. atas sume kesalahan la. Harap maafkan eika. Kalau still tak bolah, datang la jumpa eika and just tell me what should I do to get that forgiveness. InsyaAllah…

Happy fasting!!

A week

Well, apart from being busy with exam papers that need to be marked, i did have some fun during this school holiday.

Hari 1: Boring2, so jalan2 dengan haikal n the geng kat OU. Semua org lapar mase tue cari pizza. Last2 g kat Murni je..Semua org mesty penah lepak kat Murni kan. Musim bola so mmg ramai mamat2 tengok bola. mamat tengok bola, saya tengok mamat tengok bola. Hehe..

Hari 2: Abg Fai ajak g maen bowling... Termakbul jugak hasrat angah nak makan pizza. So layan la si haikal tue yg dah makin pandai lompat2 atas meja makan. "Haikal! Where's your manner?". Macam la haikal paham cakap Mak Lang dia kan. Dekat bowling center die nak kejar bola n pin bowling. Mak Lang dah penat dah pegang haikal. Laen kali nak bawak tali ikat die kat bola bowling tue. Sure takleyh gerak. Hehe..Mak Lang sayang Haikal!



Hari 3: Kereta eika rosak di tengah jalan di Kuala Lumpur lepas g shopping and ambik adik di Perpustakaan Kanak-Kanak Kuala Lumpur. Sungguh sedeyh. Tapi yg kelakarnya, mummy datang bawak makanan. Kami makan kat tepi jalan. Saya malu jadi saya makan dalam keta. Adik2 yg laen naek belakang Hilux abah n duk kat dalam kotak tue. Lucu giler mummy punya idea neh! We had a great time wpon berpanas kat tepi jalan tue.



Hari 4: Keluar hang out ngan BFF. Tengok wayang citer The A-Team. Giler gelak. Funny sgt! Jangan lupa tengok. Kalu tak ada idea, eika suggests Killers. Best jugak. Eika suka~


Hari 5: Mummy selesema teruk, jadi bawak g jumpa Doc.Sebelum jumpa doc, maen2 ngan Atif. Atif nie anak abe saye. Comel kan~~ Hobi dia nangis and berdiri lama2. Seronoknya tengok muka dia jebik2 nak nangis... hehe.


Esok kena balik Kuantan sudah. Ekin nikah and she needs my help with a few things. I'm glad to help her. wpon cuti ada 2 minggu tapi 5 hari je yang i betul2 happy bercuti. the rest of the days busy dengan extra classes and things to do. hope things will get better. InsyaAllah!!

yihaaaa! (^_*)

Tak Patut

Mmg bosan sejak dua-menjak nie. mana tah semua orang menghilang. kawan2 bloggers pon sibuk saja. ini memang tak patut. tak patut.....!!!

I should do something. something great yang boleh ubah hidup ini a little bit- towards a better one. apa yea???

saya blurr niee...