Not there yet

I don’t understand..

Why once people get married, or found their so-called ‘soulmate’, they no longer keep in touch with their friends? Old friends-to be specific. I have lost many best friends to marriage. Marriage seems to swallow them in one big basket, and confined them there. They no longer text you or call you. Not like what we used to do back then.

There might be various reasons for this. Their hectic life or ‘busy’ would be the most popular reason ever. This include:

# job to handle
# obligation towards husband
# kids to take care
# meal to cook
# etc..

but to me, it seems like they don’t need us, friend anymore. They only have that one world to take care of.Hence, others unattached would be just mere dust.

It is quite hard for me to comprehend. Maybe it’s true that their life is so damn busy with lots of things to settle. Maybe they have new friends to take care of. Maybe I’m not a good friend of worth keeping. Maybe life is like that. Maybe they already get what they want in life and friends mean nothing anymore.

Or could it be because.....

...... I just simply not there yet?...Hurmm....

Chematrian In Action Again!

It was a superb day for me. How excited I was as I drove like crazy from Kuantan to KL on that Saturday after a school event just to celebrate my mummy, abah, abe and uste's belated bday. It was a surprise so mummy dah frustrated dah when i said i tak balik. My uste came back a week earlier without telling me so as I knew about his presence here in Malaysia, eika mmg eager nak balik. Yeayyy!!!

I was actually in my baju kurung you know! Tak sempat nak salin pon. Punya la nak jayakan surprise nie. I went to Seremban to fetch my razif. A bit gado here gado there(^_*), cari kek and stuff .. we finally made it to Kunang Kunang.

With two cute cakes, candles and so on, I walked in and saw lots of beautiful faces waiting. Me and my sis sang the Happy Birthday song. i could tell that they were quite suprised. How I love them all! We celebrated that night with joy and laughter. Sume datang dengan partner. My bro n kak long with lil cute atif yang sakit perut, angah and bro fai with lil haikal comel, me n raz, uste and syerin, mummy and abah, and also my two cute lil sisters. I thanked Allah for his blessing, in giving me such a supportive family. I prayed to Allah that we will always be there for each other.

After the dinner, me, raz, angah, abg fai,haikal and those two lil devils went for bowling. Our favourite game! That wrapped up the day.



CheMatrian go bowl!

Team Pusing Bola (kapten=raz)

My fav guy beraksi~

Thanks raz for this lousy pic!you saja nak wat i hodoh!

Uste, that is so gay!

Chematrian!

BEkas Kelab Bowling Pandan. Konon la~~~

My other fav guy

Lastly, we went back home feeling great and tired. Phew! What a wonderful day~ (^_^)

Ramadhan joy!

Ramadhan is here. Yippi!!! I must admit that I feel anxious. Will I do better this year? Hopefully! (^_^)

So, eika nak mohon ampun maaf dari orang yang eika mungkin pernah sakiti, buat dosa, lukai…. atas sume kesalahan la. Harap maafkan eika. Kalau still tak bolah, datang la jumpa eika and just tell me what should I do to get that forgiveness. InsyaAllah…

Happy fasting!!

A week

Well, apart from being busy with exam papers that need to be marked, i did have some fun during this school holiday.

Hari 1: Boring2, so jalan2 dengan haikal n the geng kat OU. Semua org lapar mase tue cari pizza. Last2 g kat Murni je..Semua org mesty penah lepak kat Murni kan. Musim bola so mmg ramai mamat2 tengok bola. mamat tengok bola, saya tengok mamat tengok bola. Hehe..

Hari 2: Abg Fai ajak g maen bowling... Termakbul jugak hasrat angah nak makan pizza. So layan la si haikal tue yg dah makin pandai lompat2 atas meja makan. "Haikal! Where's your manner?". Macam la haikal paham cakap Mak Lang dia kan. Dekat bowling center die nak kejar bola n pin bowling. Mak Lang dah penat dah pegang haikal. Laen kali nak bawak tali ikat die kat bola bowling tue. Sure takleyh gerak. Hehe..Mak Lang sayang Haikal!



Hari 3: Kereta eika rosak di tengah jalan di Kuala Lumpur lepas g shopping and ambik adik di Perpustakaan Kanak-Kanak Kuala Lumpur. Sungguh sedeyh. Tapi yg kelakarnya, mummy datang bawak makanan. Kami makan kat tepi jalan. Saya malu jadi saya makan dalam keta. Adik2 yg laen naek belakang Hilux abah n duk kat dalam kotak tue. Lucu giler mummy punya idea neh! We had a great time wpon berpanas kat tepi jalan tue.



Hari 4: Keluar hang out ngan BFF. Tengok wayang citer The A-Team. Giler gelak. Funny sgt! Jangan lupa tengok. Kalu tak ada idea, eika suggests Killers. Best jugak. Eika suka~


Hari 5: Mummy selesema teruk, jadi bawak g jumpa Doc.Sebelum jumpa doc, maen2 ngan Atif. Atif nie anak abe saye. Comel kan~~ Hobi dia nangis and berdiri lama2. Seronoknya tengok muka dia jebik2 nak nangis... hehe.


Esok kena balik Kuantan sudah. Ekin nikah and she needs my help with a few things. I'm glad to help her. wpon cuti ada 2 minggu tapi 5 hari je yang i betul2 happy bercuti. the rest of the days busy dengan extra classes and things to do. hope things will get better. InsyaAllah!!

yihaaaa! (^_*)

Tak Patut

Mmg bosan sejak dua-menjak nie. mana tah semua orang menghilang. kawan2 bloggers pon sibuk saja. ini memang tak patut. tak patut.....!!!

I should do something. something great yang boleh ubah hidup ini a little bit- towards a better one. apa yea???

saya blurr niee...

There she goes again...

This perpetual sickness I dwell on
Has continued to perplex my head
As that tyranny of yours spears right through my heart, I still hold tight. Upright.
This state of agitation won’t bring lucidity
Someone should succour me
Yet, this repulsive mind of mine inveigles me with more malice.
I am not meek. Jocund is not mined anymore. It doesn’t bring tranquility to this sly smile.
The scorn creates a precocious little brat, pushing benevolence. Unscrupulous!


Lalalala~~~

You don't really get it don't you? me either.

Just pass through. Yeehhaaa...

wHaT a dAy!

It was a beautiful night when we celebrated these 4 teachers yg habis berpraktikal di sekolah saye nie. all of them were so damn nice and sengal. just like us guru2 mude kat cni (i muda key!)

thx to laip, fauzi, amani and didi for cheering up our days kat cni 3 bulan kebelkangan neh. laip cried kat airport mase kitorg hantar. sesuai ngan namanya...baby L!mulut fauzi is one tg yg aku akan rindu sgt (tak tahan nak cili) but i still remember the first time i saw him.

'urm..mcm superman nie'

tapi bile tgok lama2. celah uban pon tak!(kuasa one tail mengganas)

didi and amani masa mula2 datang paling innocent(konon!) and menimbulkan kntroversi. ahli mesyuarat tingkap je yg tau~~~tapi yg akan plg dirindukan ialah naek kereta dgn diorg. sure kutuk suara juru karaoke kereta. sentap gtu!

i just hope future will treat you better and give u more fun and vibrant tgs in ur life.

Going to miss u lots guys!!!

Baby L sure kat Sabah dah sekarang bah...

Didi and Amani wif mentor, kak ct!

nie semua chegu2 yg 'masuk air'



We ended the night with a Bday song to Ikmal and eating ice cream while sengol-sengolan.


Tapi...tika menulis ini, saya sedang sedeyh. i guess love cannot be forced right? if only i had not loved him so much.. but i am~~~(T_T)

jeng3x...